今年的油桐花開了又謝了!再也沒有機會和媽媽一起去看花了!時間過得很快,媽媽離開我們五個月了,我想,也許我們都還沒有走出這個悲傷,因為媽媽走的太突然,我們都沒有心理準備,好多事情還沒來得及做.尤其,媽媽一向獨立慣了,生活事務都自行打理,日子過得正常且平順,總覺得還有很多時間可以做很多事,可是她就這麼走了,不僅讓人心痛,更難以接受這個事實!這些日子以來,生活似乎回歸正常,但不時的思念夾著輕輕的刺痛,我想這是不捨中帶著愧疚吧!因為她走得太快,我們做得太少,不知如何面對,更遑論走出悲傷,一直陷在傷痛中,彷彿這樣才能平撫情緒.我不知道如何走出悲傷,但我相信媽媽一定不願意看到這種情形,"思傷脾,悲傷肺",因此我們要有抒發情緒的管道,寫部落格是方法之一,同時我們要正面思考,雖然我們很難過,我很後悔沒有多花一點時間陪她,希望當初可以....,但人生無法重來,感謝媽媽帶給我們的人生經驗,我們應該學習她的開朗,養成正面思考的習慣,好好地面對人生吧!
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I haven’t read mom’s blog, since I came back from Taiwan. After that I’d stayed in Theresa’s house to take care of her baby, and I went back to where I’m living with Peggy & Greg that was end of May. On June 3rd I talked to Rosa, and told her I don’t know mom’s blog. She said she would e-mail me.
Every time when I checked my e-mail, I have seen Rosa already e-mailed me on that day, but I just skip it, I scared to click it. I am fearful to turn it on. I just won’t want to confront the truth mom had passed away. It does really touch a nerve of mine.
Today, finally when I clicked the blog, and I’ve seen this article, I just can’t help to stop the crying. Evelyn’s every word that was touching in deep of my heart, I have same feeling as Evelyn, because mom went to heaven too soon we are still won’t believe she was gone and never come back.
At the time I was stayed in Taiwan, when I turned the key and opened mom house’s door, I would imagine she still sitting at couch, and I would say, “ Mom I am home.” We won’t let her go. (因為我們有太多的不拾.) We regretted we didn’t spend more time to accompany her. As I driving my car, when I see the empty passenger seat where was she always sat there and I would never see her sit there again. We all got to learn how to look on the bright way. – From Doris
端午節那天我剛從丹麥回來，佩佩準備了粽葉與糯米，我們一起包鹼粽，想起和媽媽一起包粽的種種，心中總有些微的刺痛。很想再跟媽媽一起做很多事，但已經沒有機會了。對媽媽有太多的不捨，太多的遺憾，但是媽媽在天上一定不願意看見我們悲傷，就像小鳳說的我們應該學習媽媽樂觀的一面。
我很喜歡媽媽的部落格，但我不敢晚上看。是的，我們該學媽樂觀的面對事物的態度，但每當我想到媽媽的驟逝，或看著部落格裡的文章，淚水就爬滿了臉，我想走出悲傷，但不知該如何走，也許大哭幾場，也許需要更多些時間吧！
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